So what do I want to write in this space. This isn't the first time I've wanted to write a blog, but there's not a whole lot that comes to mind as being appropriate as the first post.

Maybe this comes down to my tendency to try something, get frustrated that I can't yet make the reality match the perfect vision in my head, and then I quit and give up. Yet, I know in my own head that a steady and constant process of incremental improvement should allow me to achieve the quality in my fiction, YouTube videos, and blog writing that I seek.

Being frustrated in the creative process is nothing new for me. It has haunted me since my college days when I was studying music composition at SIU. I think this attitude was a small part of why I never finished my degree. In fact, I think this is a contributing factor to my ongoing battle with depression as well.

One of my favorite drummers/authors of all time, Neil Peart, once expressed a thought (and I'm paraphrasing here) that no creative work or work of art is ever truly finished. It is only abandoned.

Creative work is hard. To create a novel, a piece of written music, run a YouTube channel, or create a website; all of it is hard work. I intend the purpose of this blog to be a glimpse into my thought process (however tortured that might be) as I struggle to make that which I envision into a fully living and breathing reality. This is a documentation of my struggle to create something, anything, that approaches my own standards of quality.